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My journey took me into the occult for 14 years of my life. I escaped when it became too dangerous for my sanity, and began a new path, that I have been on for more than 30 years.
My life is full of coincidences and chance occurrences, as if pieces of an enormous jigsaw were being assembled. Everything I need I have, whether it is material, financial, spiritual or otherwise. Every time it looks like I am heading for disaster, I end up better than before.
I get times of revelation, where I get a sense of the overall jigsaw picture. These lead to changes to my very nature, affecting thought processes, even down below instinct.
I can characterise it as personal deconstruction. I have become aware of my limitations as far as knowledge, wisdom, intelligence and strength are concerned. This self-awareness has allowed me to have an accurate view of myself, which gives me stability.
I know that my opinions, assumptions, plans and ambitions are all flawed, so I try to avoid them. Taking each moment and situation as I find it.
I can laugh at myself, insults and praise have little effect on me, I don't get embarrassed or feel foolish. I am emotionally free.
From my perspective, I consider other people as better than me, people I can learn from, people deserving of love and kindness. I make no judgement about them, even if they set themselves against me. This means that I can resolve conflicts by non-resistance, without retaliation. Also, when I do suffer illnesses and so on, my attitude has changed from "why me?" to "why not me?". After all, to complain about a setback implies that someone else deserves it more. That implies I am better than they are, which is counter to my journey.
I have a reducing sense of self. Not there yet. I practice by doing menial and dirty jobs, and by eating whatever food I am given. I deliberately do not exercise preferences. This means that I can take joy from things that would cause others to whine and complain.
Although my view of myself is increasingly small, I find that my life is increasingly open to more possibilities. I am not shackled by self-image or expectations. I have nothing to prove, no status to defend.
My life is, however, open to the miraculous. There are the coincidences, as I have said. There is the fact I have no needs that are not fulfilled, and very few worries. There are also the times when I have received wisdom, knowledge, and strength from outside myself. This means that, whatever situation I find myself in, I know I will have all the resources I need to deal with it. I can go through life without fear.
I can tell you, that this is totally different from my experiences with the occult. That experience was one of enslavement. This is about liberation .
_________________ Love all, forgive all, show mercy, condemn no-one. May the King's peace be upon your body, mind, soul and spirit. May love and joy be ever with you. http://www.waycyber.com
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